Do you ever have one of those days where nothing in particular happens, but by the end of it you just feel like shit? I'm having one of those days right now. I don't blog much but screw it, i need to get this out of my system.

I feel like I've just been living but I'm not really alive. I know, deep shit eh? I feel like my grade 7/8 self again, where i used to right depressing emo poetry. It's weird because i know i'm so blessed and i have nothing to be depressed about, but i just feel.. crappy. I'm firm in my belief in Christ.. but I think my relationship with him can use some working on. Obviously.

This has no order whatsoever, I'm just ranting and whining.

I'm sick of just seeing the surface of people. I feel like I don't know anyone. Like really know them. But it's not like im any different. I don't just spill my guts out to whoever. But still... I want to have some real conversations with people.. make some meaningful memories with them. I don't know where I'm going with this. I'm fine really. Just need to stop being so pessimistic. bye.