Do you ever have one of those days where nothing in particular happens, but by the end of it you just feel like shit? I'm having one of those days right now. I don't blog much but screw it, i need to get this out of my system.

I feel like I've just been living but I'm not really alive. I know, deep shit eh? I feel like my grade 7/8 self again, where i used to right depressing emo poetry. It's weird because i know i'm so blessed and i have nothing to be depressed about, but i just feel.. crappy. I'm firm in my belief in Christ.. but I think my relationship with him can use some working on. Obviously.

This has no order whatsoever, I'm just ranting and whining.

I'm sick of just seeing the surface of people. I feel like I don't know anyone. Like really know them. But it's not like im any different. I don't just spill my guts out to whoever. But still... I want to have some real conversations with people.. make some meaningful memories with them. I don't know where I'm going with this. I'm fine really. Just need to stop being so pessimistic. bye.

Sooo... I moved on thursday. This is a picture of my room after all my stuff was moved out. Empty...just like my heart... lol just kidding :)
I like my new house so far. Located near a lot of cool things. Can't wait to explore a bit

oh and i got my cartilage pierced :)

Red Heart
by Hey Rosetta!

Were you born in water,
a fish so cold?
were you born in autumn,
as the river froze?
cause you shut up
and you're shut in
and i know that
you've got your reasons
but even still, listen:
honey, let your red heart show

Won't you let your red heart show
Won't you let your red heart show
Can't you let your red heart show

Were you born a closed book,
full of secret lines? (and bound so tight)
or did you learn to lock it,
as not to break your spine? (oh! you were bound so tight)
cause you shut up
and you're all shut inside
and i wanted to get you smiling
and maybe once in awhile you could try
and maybe let your red heart show

come on let your red heart show
come on let your red heart show
come on let your red heart show

won't you let your red heart show?
won't you let your red heart show?
don't you let your red heart go cold
don't you let your red heart go cold
we were given so much and we let it go
we were given so much and we're getting old
we were promised so much but we let it go
we were promised so much and it's going i know
but you look so good when you're laughing you know
yeah you know you look so good when you let it show
honey you look so good when you're laughing

See you later...








I'll miss you

My first etch a sketch creation. I'll title it "Rabbit Man"

I wish I knew what I wanted. I wish I knew what I was thinking. Sorry.

It would be nice to feel something for a change. Anything at all.

I love toothless.

So if anyone was wondering what i wanted for my birthday here is my list:

-Between the Trees CD "Spain"
-Vince Vaccaro CD "Vince Vaccaro" (might need to get it online)
-Paramore T-shirt (might need to get one online)
-T-shirt with autobot or decepticon symbol on it
-gift cards are always nice

That's all i can think of right now.. :)

That's supposed to be me. Not really sure if it actually looks like me though.

Not sure why I decided to start a blog. I hate writing. Perhaps I will just start putting up my artwork.

This is a painting I did last year of Kurosaki Ichigo from Bleach. Kinda sad I gave it away.

"Hey Bekah, come into the warehouse with me...I want you right under me..."

Wow it was a day of one liners today. And spitting of noodles.

I know you will be waiting for me, but will I be there when the time comes?

I raised my flag up into your heart and you let the winds come tear it apart.

It was always you.