Do you ever have one of those days where nothing in particular happens, but by the end of it you just feel like shit? I'm having one of those days right now. I don't blog much but screw it, i need to get this out of my system.

I feel like I've just been living but I'm not really alive. I know, deep shit eh? I feel like my grade 7/8 self again, where i used to right depressing emo poetry. It's weird because i know i'm so blessed and i have nothing to be depressed about, but i just feel.. crappy. I'm firm in my belief in Christ.. but I think my relationship with him can use some working on. Obviously.

This has no order whatsoever, I'm just ranting and whining.

I'm sick of just seeing the surface of people. I feel like I don't know anyone. Like really know them. But it's not like im any different. I don't just spill my guts out to whoever. But still... I want to have some real conversations with people.. make some meaningful memories with them. I don't know where I'm going with this. I'm fine really. Just need to stop being so pessimistic. bye.

Sooo... I moved on thursday. This is a picture of my room after all my stuff was moved out. Empty...just like my heart... lol just kidding :)
I like my new house so far. Located near a lot of cool things. Can't wait to explore a bit

oh and i got my cartilage pierced :)

Red Heart
by Hey Rosetta!

Were you born in water,
a fish so cold?
were you born in autumn,
as the river froze?
cause you shut up
and you're shut in
and i know that
you've got your reasons
but even still, listen:
honey, let your red heart show

Won't you let your red heart show
Won't you let your red heart show
Can't you let your red heart show

Were you born a closed book,
full of secret lines? (and bound so tight)
or did you learn to lock it,
as not to break your spine? (oh! you were bound so tight)
cause you shut up
and you're all shut inside
and i wanted to get you smiling
and maybe once in awhile you could try
and maybe let your red heart show

come on let your red heart show
come on let your red heart show
come on let your red heart show

won't you let your red heart show?
won't you let your red heart show?
don't you let your red heart go cold
don't you let your red heart go cold
we were given so much and we let it go
we were given so much and we're getting old
we were promised so much but we let it go
we were promised so much and it's going i know
but you look so good when you're laughing you know
yeah you know you look so good when you let it show
honey you look so good when you're laughing

See you later...








I'll miss you

My first etch a sketch creation. I'll title it "Rabbit Man"

I wish I knew what I wanted. I wish I knew what I was thinking. Sorry.

It would be nice to feel something for a change. Anything at all.

I love toothless.

So if anyone was wondering what i wanted for my birthday here is my list:

-Between the Trees CD "Spain"
-Vince Vaccaro CD "Vince Vaccaro" (might need to get it online)
-Paramore T-shirt (might need to get one online)
-T-shirt with autobot or decepticon symbol on it
-gift cards are always nice

That's all i can think of right now.. :)

That's supposed to be me. Not really sure if it actually looks like me though.

Not sure why I decided to start a blog. I hate writing. Perhaps I will just start putting up my artwork.

This is a painting I did last year of Kurosaki Ichigo from Bleach. Kinda sad I gave it away.

"Hey Bekah, come into the warehouse with me...I want you right under me..."

Wow it was a day of one liners today. And spitting of noodles.

I know you will be waiting for me, but will I be there when the time comes?

I raised my flag up into your heart and you let the winds come tear it apart.

It was always you.

merry christmas I guess... ugh
Christmas snuck up on me this year. I don't really recall what happened this past week.
Seems like everything is moving so fast but I'm just sitting with my mouth slightly agape as everything rushes past me. I just remember glimpses of this week: blue people, Jesus gun, demonic cult, holding hands, confused feelings, and pretty sunsets.
Yeah, doesn't make much sense to me either.
I don't feel like writing anything. Feel dizzy. Just posting this cause its been awhile. Bye.
this is Joan Jett. Cool picture. They are making a movie bout her and the runaways (her band). Played by Kristen Stewart. Also featuring Dakota Fanning. Don't know why I'm telling you this. Bye.

"Behind him, across the vast distances of space and time, from the place he had left, he thought he heard music too. But perhaps it was only an echo."

- The Giver

I wish I had a six legged flying bison

oh man i had something to blog a few days ago, but now i dont remember... oh well lol
I'll leave you with this quote

"Fate rarely calls upon us at a moment of our choosing"
-Optimus Prime

This post is dedicated to Sarah O. Get well soon SON!

I just don't see the point anymore.

HELLO!

Extreme apologies to all of you that read my blog, aka Rebekah Ho, for not keeping up with it very well. Like I said in my info box thing, I suck at blogging. Much has happened to me in the last few days since my last post and I think I am too lazy to sum it all up in this post, but I shall try my best.

Thanksgiving: Went to Stanley Park with my family and it was a pleasant day. However, my brother stepped on my ipod touch causing its screen to crack. Surprisingly, I wasn't mad. I think I was just thankful that I even had an iPod touch and a big brother to step on it. We should think this way more often. We take so many things for granted. Be thankful for what you have because really God has given us much more than we deserve or need. Give a little back.

Rebekah Ho: Damn that bekah ho and her week immune system! Thankfully she is back at school :) I missed her so much. I honestly was lost without her lol. Welcome back Ho :) don't infect us all, please.

Birthdays: Happy Birthday Esther R (my other half), Adam Joe (Dooly), and Claudia (person I don't have a nickname for cause I dont know you very well...)!!!

David Crowder Band: OH EM GEEEE!!! David Crowder Band was phenomenal! Mind blowing! Mind bottling! So extravagant it bottles your mind! I waved at David Crowder. He waved back. Yeah, we tight like that.